Fucking update

Fucking what? What's changed?

Not much. I'm still here in Sydney grinding away at the sales, making it work. Making it HAPPEN. It's all getting quieter now, all the crazy euros are already up the coast trying to avoid the rain... man oh man. Seeing the flood water in 1770 and getting calls about it blocking the fucking Pacific Highway is hard hahah, people who book £300 sailing adventures in Airlie who suddenly can't turn up for the departure. "Have you got travel insurance pal? No? Well... about that refund you wanted....." To be honest though I have let just one sale go through my fingers in the last 10 days, it is going so swimmingly. It's all about compromising your morals and telling yourself that, hey, these guys are gonna be doing this trip. They may as well do it with me, help me get that ca$h money, lets help them get their dreams.

Love life? What love life?! I was dating a girl for a while, a really really great girl. We parted ways a couple of days ago cause the age difference seemed insurmountable (10 years?) but man you know how young asians look..... I miss her though, you're guaranteed good conversation with this girl. I want to speak to her again, to try and build things back up. I am a big fan. It was a little (euphemism for HORRIBLY) awkward taking her back to my place what with my single bedroom having a fucking curtain for one of the walls. That curtain aint helping anyone. Need to build a nice brick wall so I can have some friggen PRIVACY? Or I need to move out. We'll see how it goes. I love this place to be fair, a great apartment with some really cool people. Get to practice teaching English to the pair of Japanese doctors I live with while playing pool against my other Japanese flatmate (he is pretty friggen good). As for his girlfriend, well, like an older sister to me. I'm being looked after. I want to enjoy this life as much as possible for now before really getting out across Aussie and slumming it, 10 bed dorms minimum. Camping with snakes preferred.

To go deep into my drunken psyche right now I would say that my place in life right now is all about finding new motivations to do the same shit I always do. We all have a reasonably clear idea of where we want to be in life but why do we want to be there? For who or for what? Theres always a source. It's conscious effort though, every day, to rewire. A lady once put it best - 'trying to find new sources of happiness or natural highs in our brains instead of going down the same old paths (that may be self-destructive or damaging)is like going through a jungle with a machete. You need to make new paths, slashing and slashing at all the obstacles in the way. If you lose motivation you'll get back on the same old path and maybe the jungle grows back in the place where you started making inroads before. So work hard and stay motivated"

I think I adlibbed a bit but I hope you get it. Or maybe I don't even really give a SHIT.

Drunken peace out.